When you see this, I will no longer be in this world.
When my mother gave birth to me, she died, in order to let me live, to protect me.
My father and my brother died in an accident, to protect me.
What kept me alive after their deaths is the memory I have of them, and the terrible guilt I feel for still being alive.
This illness is robbing me of even that.
The family that only exists in my memory is being slowly killed off. I can't take it anymore, living while slowly losing the memories of those people who were dearest to me.
Still the most frightening thing is losing the guilt I feel.
I am not afraid of killing my family once again.
I will leave this world, with the few memories I have left.
While I am still me.
Female Patient's Suicide Note
Female Patient's Note | |
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| Kanji | 女性患者の遺書 じょせい かんじゃ の いしょ |
| Game | Fatal Frame: Mask of the Lunar Eclipse |
| Author | Yoriko Sonohara |
| Chapter | Phase II: Resonance |
| Located at | Rougetsu Hall, 2nd Floor Hallway |
| Obtained | On the floor beside the broken door to Room 205 |
| Description | Note seemingly written by a patient. She writes about the suffering from losing her family. |
| Additional Description | An old letter fell out of the crack in the door. |
| Related Notes | Patient's Note, Suicide Woman's Note |
これをあなたが見ているという事は、
私はもう、この世界にいないという事です。
母は私が生まれた時、
私を守るように
この世を去りました。
父と兄も、事故によって
この世を去りました。
家族を失った私を支えているのは、
三人の思い出と、自分だけ生き残った
罪の意識だけです。
それなのに病は、それすら奪っていきます。
私の記憶の中にしか存在しない家族が
殺されていく
なのに私はどうする事もできない
私は私の中で
大切な人を殺しながら生き延びる
私にはもう耐えられません。
でも本当に恐れているのは
この罪の意識すら失う事。
全てを失っても何も感じない私
家族を再び殺めても何も感じない私
だから私は、記憶がわずかに
あるうちにこの世を去ります。
私が私であるうちに。