Sakuya's Diary (1)

Sakuya's Diary (1)
Kanji	朔夜の日記 一 さくやのにっき　よん
Game	Fatal Frame: Mask of the Lunar Eclipse
Author	Sakuya Haibara
Chapter	Phase VIII: Sakuya
Located at	Room 412
Obtained	On the bed.
Description	A red diary, written in messy lettering.
Additional Description	Is this her diary?
Related Notes	Sakuya's Diary (2), Sakuya's Diary (3) & Sakuya's Diary (4)

ENJA

i   pUT my Self in the DOLL
        so that eVen if
                          I foRget mySElf

        the mE in tHe doLL wiLL
                      telL me whO i am

    thAT wAs how i heLd on to mYseLF
                                           but

     TODay
     i asKEd it
                   wHat is my NAme?
i askeD       and         i aSked but
                         thEre was nO ANSwer

         wiThout The mE insiDe tHE DoLL
                  the lITTLe onEs inSide mE
                                     GET upSet

tHey   eAt my INSides
                    THen tHey sleEp

         the stArvINg litTle oneS

             i  cAN HEAr
     theM
                 wAkINg uP

             my soUL

       broKen

                i   aM

           descending.

人形にハ　私ヲ
　　　　　　いれてある
　　　　　　　　　かラ
　　　私が私ノ事　　忘レても
　人形ノ中の私が
　　　　　　　答えて　くレるから

　　私が　私ヲ　　　　失わナいで
　　　　　いられ　た　ノに

　　今日
　　　私の名前ハなんですか、ト
たずネても
　たずネても
　　　　　答えヲ　返して　くれない

人形ノ　なかの　私　　が　いナいと
　　私　ノ中の　　　　児たちが
　　　　　　　　　さワぎだす

私の　中ヲ
　　　　　食らい　眠ル

　　うえた児　たち

　　　　聞こえル
目覚め
　　　　ノ　音

　　　　魂が
　崩　レ
　　　　帰　ル
来
　　　　迎

Additional Information

The term "starving little ones" or "hungry children" (うえた児) may be a visual slant-reference, as Sakuya is aware of the nature of the spirits inhabiting her and this is the only time she calls them "children". うえた creates the term 餓えた (ueta; starved) while 児 (ko; child) is visually similar to 鬼 (oni; demon/ghost). It may be intended that a fluent speaker will be reminded of 餓鬼 (gaki; hungry ghost). Term is used in Japanese Buddhism to refer to, among other concepts, the ill-at-rest spirits in need of pacification/purification featured in the Fatal Frame series.