Mr. Hojo won't choose me.
I can't do anything about that.
But I'm fine. I'm fine with it.
The more I say that, the more I want to cry. The tears wash me clean. Clean of my clingy possessiveness, my jealousy, my desire to give in to him.
He doesn't have to choose me.
I just want to be at his side for as long as he'll let me.
He'll grow so used to me there I'll become invisible to him.
Like water. I will vanish. I will become transparent, colorless.
Rui's Journal 7
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Rui's Journal 7 | |
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| Kanji | 累の手帳 七 るい の てちょう なな |
| Game | Fatal Frame: Maiden of Black Water |
| Author | Rui Kagamiya |
| Chapter | Final Drop: Bride from Black Water |
| Located at | Hojo Residence, Study |
| Obtained | On the couch |
| Description | Rui's journal was on the sofa in the study. It talks about wanting to be with someone. |
| Additional Description | It's Rui's journal. Something's written in it. |
| Related Notes | Rui's Journal 1, Rui's Journal 2, Rui's Journal 3, Rui's Journal 4, Rui's Journal 5, Rui's Journal 6 |
先生は、私を選んでくれないだろう
それは仕方のないことだ。
これでいい。これでいいんだ。
そう何度も口にすると、涙が出てきた。
泣きながら自分が洗われていくみたいだった。
理不尽な独占欲も、醜い嫉妬も、
先生の犠牲になりたいという密かな欲望も。
選らんでくれなくてもいい。
先生が行ってしまうまで、
なるべく先生の傍にいる。
先生を悩ませたり困らせたりしない。
傍にいるのが自然な存在になる。
水のように、自分を消していく。
透明になって、何の色もなく。